Marcus Stone (1840-1921)

Marcus Stone Painting
The Old Letters, 1865
“I looked for which is not, nor can be” (Christina Rossetti)

A Pause Of Thought

by Christina Rossetti

I looked for that which is not, nor can be,
And hope deferred made my heart sick in truth
But years must pass before a hope of youth
Is resigned utterly.

I watched and waited with a steadfast will:
And though the object seemed to flee away
That I so longed for, ever day by day
I watched and waited still.

Sometimes I said: This thing shall be no more;
My expectation wearies and shall cease;
I will resign it now and be at peace:
Yet never gave it o’er.

Sometimes I said: It is an empty name
I long for; to a name why should I give
The peace of all the days I have to live? —
Yet gave it all the same.

Alas, thou foolish one! alike unfit
For healthy joy and salutary pain:
Thou knowest the chase useless, and again
Turnest to follow it.

Christina Rossetti, Goblin Market and Other Poems, Macmillan And Co., London and Cambridge, 1865

Marcus Stone (1840-1921)

Loves Daydream End, circa 1880